Selasa, 17 Februari 2009

meanings @ 05.15

this isn't the right time, i can't take it anymore, i must tell you this.
this is somewhat what's on my mind. what's on my brain and what am i feeling
to someone who really makes me mad, crazy, and lost.

there is something about you that makes me smile
there is something about you that you need to know
there is something about you that makes me laugh
there is something about you that makes me believe

but sadly, all of that disappear.
hope is no longer been a part of me.
hopes and dreams fade away.
this isn't the right time, but i must tell you this.
there's a place you need to know.
there's somewhere you belong.
and its isn't there.
nor here
but its far away.

something tells me to stay.
then it tells me to go away.
but i insist i keep looking.
when i look behind those keyholes.
i saw what i dont want to saw.
you're a failure.
you're nothing.
and you hate me.

words, letters, sentences, and paragraph.
its belong to you.
this belongs to you.
those words,
those letters,
those sentences,
and those paragraph,
repeats, untill a piece of parchment, full of its ink.
it keep saying 'i need you'

i open my eyes, and i try to see.
but im blinded by those white lights behind you.
it's fake.
you're black, black lights.
you aren't an angel with white
you're a devil with black.

it's rolling, repeating, hanging inside my head.
im afraid to loosing you.
you'll leave me behind
It's not the first time

now that you said goodbye
i don't try and fix it up again
it's my fault that i keep falling for you
i've painted these walls
i walk away to say these lines

'this is something i won't regret
but now i'm burning down
the bridges i have found
to keep you from getting to me again'

i've watched these stars
i've watched the sky
i've watched your world
fall in your eyes
hold your breath
and take your time
because this is the last time, i said,

I wont stand for this
and all i need is,
somekind, somewhat, sortof, something, that remains.


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Label: poem, stupidity