Rabu, 02 Desember 2009

over-fanatic fan girl @ 05.26

hey there. i am currently in love with someone who'll never be together with me. which makes it sucks. and it hurts, but i still love him in anyway, anyway.
why? because i already fall in to deep. and i can't get out. and that's the risk of falling in love with someone. i knew him for a year already, even though we're not close. i've never been in a team with him. but my friends do. i really like to stare at him, a lot. but he never even glance a bit at me. i really wanted to be with him, but i know, it's impossible. i really wanted to make him realize that i was there, but sadly i couldn't even speak to him even one LETTER. i can't barely talk to him in even a study group. i just can't figure out how to speak when he's near me. he's just too-- PERFECT (for me) i really love him. even though it hurts, again.
i really wanted to be his. but i guess that's impossible, that's just barely, a dream. a never ever becoming true dream. this is the first time, i've cried over a person, just because i love him too much, too deep, and too strong. he can't see that he's the one who's hurting me, since loving him hurts so bad ,cus i knew that you wont be mine, at all. so this is (PROBABLY) my last chance to tell you, i wanted to be with you, forever, even though its impossible (again) and i knew it already, still, i love you with all my might. and i wish you a happy life. it hurts but if it makes you happy, i'll be alright, cause all i want is the best for you. im cheering you from the other side. which'll never be together with your side. so i guess, i really love you. and it hurts. i really wanted to see you smile for me, but it'll never happens. but, sorry. i guess i'll have to cry over you for a hundred times. since i really love you so deep, so strong, and too much. :'')

Label: love life, rants, retarded, school life, stupidity